i have a habit that i need to change. Terribly need to change!!
the habit that i struggle to change is over sleeping for something. Occasions, events, classes & CHURCH!!!
why why does it always happen?
last time was the sarawak mission trip. Can you believe that i woke up by a miracle? it was literally something or someone hammering a nail into my brains...a terrible pain and head ache that woke me up at 4.30am. i was suppose to reach church at 4am. in the end another mission team member came by my house to fetch me so that mom didn't have to rush me to church. A MIRACLE is spelled across this incident. -2008-
Another important event that i missed last year was Leader's Rally. I woke up at 10.30am when i was suppose to reach church at 7.30am or 8.30 am. I was so devastated that day. Since i missed the opportunity to bond with the other leaders across all ministry in church. Also quite sad that i wasn't given a wake up call or miss call from anyone. I was very new then. But ultimately i was the only one to be blamed.. -2009-
This year i was given a wake up call just the moment when i woke up at 8.00am when i was suppose to be at church at 7am. The first thing that was shouted across the phone was "pamelyn where are you" then next sentence "you are very wrong you know?"..of course i knew...devastated again..I was suppose to be PA to ps. ra ndy christensen and help him get ready for his performance and conference workshop..-2010-
although God had better plans for me for the rest of the conference because i had the peace of mind to attend the other conference and workshop i have chosen to equip and adequate myself... thinking back it was really a bad habit..i can't continue over sleeping in life.
What if in future it was something that I was suppose to get and be blessed but i missed it...
GOD PLEASE HELP ME.
I know today it was again a miracle. i woke up at 12pm sharp, kids ministry at 1pm, you didn't allow me to over slept and be late for kids ministry. However i really wanted to wake up earlier for desiring God, 8.30am then attend church at 10am. I can't continue to be ignorant about this constance over sleeping habit. although i'm out whole day for kids then cg which ended bout 11-ish, I 'm still not happy that i can't wake up the time that i have set my alarm. Why can't i hear my alarm!! why can't i wake up before the time i have set...please..pamelyn you need to train your brain..haha
Although i know God had been faithful in many ways such as IELTS exam. Yea..that was early and you made it. UM exams...yea all just on time..had time to go breakfast too..nice. please pamelyn no more hanky panky..I have enough of irresponsible and indiscipline attitude. FOCUS!! =D
