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Sabbath? :)

I snoozed and over slept!

I think I'm thinking too much these day

I'm having lotsa funny dreams

when i take short naps in the afternoon

or after snoozing my alarm and sleeping

just awhile more..

some are dreams that are bits of eveything

some are creepy stuff happening to the school

probably nonsense..

i dun remember..

yeah so was starring blankly at the clock

not remembering church starts at 10

and it was 10.15am

faints...

quickly get up to change and while heading out

taiping aunty came to give yummy food

salted veg and poRkkie pig..

mmm..yumz

saved it for tomorrow.

made it in time for sermon

the invited speaker was a theologists

been in new york for quite some time and still is i think

was all good but i didn't take down notes..

just jogging with his teaching in the mind

*tsktsk*

actually cos it's very wordy and quite deep.

My agenda for the day was greatly filled in

when there was some cont'

of his sermon in the afternoon 2-4pm

IT was pretty AWESOME!

some was quite deep...

like made ur mind think very hard...

but he untied

some knots in our mind

about the scriptures

and made us understand the book better.

still a long way to knowing our father better...

*jia you jia you*

Owh Ya!

I got the D U M C first CD production.

1. GOD OF ALL
2. FOR ALL TO HEAR
3. FOUND
4. ALL I WANT
5. GLORIOUS ONE
6. BLESSINGS
7. IN THIS CITY
8. ISAIAH 40 *
9. I GIVE*

* bonus track

and and

I think i know how to cook

"MEE SUAH SOUP"now...

love it love it...

Moving from only italian to asian cuisine..

7am!!

yeah i woke up at 7am

to finish the implication of my assignment

very smooth...

did it without panicking

steady leh...

even though was delayed

because of the pictures and binding..

my prince charming

helped me out with the printing

haha.

i stress him instead..

but yeah it shall be

last of me asking helped

if i really can do it.

I think i could be able to cope one

just that i didn't try hard enough

shouldn't be so reliant...

*tsktsk*

Uni was great...

though cos of the lack of sleep

i couldn't really pay attention

for the morning session.

Lunch surprisingly

I had a change of taste

no longer the "chu yok fun"

i crazy over since the beginning of my uni.

ngeks*

wanted something spicy to wake me up

saw someone eating very yummy curry laksa

but couldn't find the stall selling the one alike

got wan tan mee instead...

not bad oso

edible...

Something funny happen

the moral lecturer came to speak to me

perhaps cos i was eating in his class

and folding my leg up...

aih too comfortable d...

paiseh...

must change must change

*blueks*

but guess what..

with some good competition within my buddies

i finish my part of the new group assignment in uni

and completed the format editing

for out previous submission

the one that i left out...

yay! good good learn not to procrastinate

take every opportunity and finish it fast..

There is another assignment to pass up nx week

25 pages.

*ezeh* ;)

we can do it..hmm.must start early...

uni ended early

had a great solo adventure after it

reach back home just in time for

*dry swimming*

with aunty uncle neighbour n mom!

love it love it..

know how to count ady.

thank you aunty uncle

for the sandwich & pumpkin soup...

I realise it was so good perhaps

cos it was made out of sweat and love...

possible right? :P

cheers.

with his strenght

I guess for most people

Friday is the day we look forward to

because we know that the weekend is approaching

and we can relax and rejuvenate

i remember somewhere in the book

writes work hard for 6 days

and rest on the sabbath ^^

sadly i havent been reading the scriptures

till i can remember the verses.

so the moment i stepped in the school

i started to dig out the books and sort them out

imagine 30 years of history

Some books were old but the content was great.

So we kept it.

Now i understand why we need republish good books ;)

Then there were bills...

bills since 1995

*jaw drops*

woah can throw liao....

but i didn't

cos i wanted to keep it

to remind myself not to be like that

for the bills are still the same now

but i will change the way things has been running

slowly as time pass...

God, sustain me...dun let me give up.

help me to be committed.

We also had a surprise visit

from the health ministry

menteri kebersihan?

checking if we were breeding aedes...

thank God

we were safe..

God, help us to settle those stuff soon.

I must graduate and help mom with the papers.

hopefully all will be good by this year end.

after lunch

i can't remember what i did

but evening was tuition

and cleaning of kjay's balcony and back compound

as usual the kakak

don't think the place was messy

but i could see that major clean up was needed

so with jiejie we did our work

soon later kakak came to help us out

was glad that she could accept the new changes

hope she keep up to that standard.

keep the place clean and neat all the time.

cool..

I guess appearance is almost all good

God, i hope next..

we can do something about the system

learning and financial system.

Those are major major....

God, I trust all in good time.

Guide me, guide us..

only for ur glory God..

Anyway was happy about the changes made

YEAH LIGHT HOUSE!

I'm not sure if it is the right choice

but God, reveal to me if i'm ready to lead...

I'm wanna grow with you.

I trust you..

thank you guys for praying

I did my asgment after mamak

didn't freak out at all

AMAZING....

Horrible transition to Good

si tao poh was back from day trip last night

Early in the morning she exploded

Spoil people's mood

I wonder why she can't speak nicely to people

It's not like people don't make any mistakes...

As said last night i requested to stay home to finish my asgment

In the end i couldn't do nuts

felt so stupid after the early morning condemnation.

Didn't want to waste more time staring at the screen

I did some admin work for school

then left to the djay.

fun fun

the atmosphere there is always light

the experience teacher works very professionally and we could click

she seem understanding and always willing the lend a ear and helping hand in whatever area i was able to help

In contrast with si tao poh always bursting out with condemnation

Gees..I keep telling myself to forgive her and forget...

cause that is what we are asked to do as follower of Christ...

Lunch time si tao poh came again...

Join us for lunch

Nothing happen

We were suppose to pay the bills

she wanted her way

she didnt trust me

To save trouble I kept to myself

Followed her way

then we head for PJ states

everywhere was congested

She couldn't decide which road she wanted

or she was just plain impatient

keep changing roads

Pammie kept her patients

Until she couldn't take it

cause the clock was ticking

and it was suppose to be study time

So pammie mention stick to the plan

pay online cos it's fast, no sweat no jam.

Finally manage to knock some sense and convince her

but pammie still couldn't go home to do her homework

Cause mommie still wouldn't let her go

Ended we still quarrel

Cos she said i can never follow what she wants

I still don't get her point...

How many times have i told her

that I only have 2 more days to finish my work

then she started to bring all the grandmother stories

threaten to suicide to see if i could survive or not

I don't know how much longer i can take this crappy-ness

I'm tired of being threaten and condemn all the time.

She seems easily speaking and bursting everytime

Then she forgets...

or perhaps she treats as though nothing happens before

not knowing she only makes the scar deeper each time

Can I let go and forgive again?

But i know i'm making her sounds all bad

like I didn't put salt to the wound

All things takes two to clap..

To take a breather I help her with her work again

and left for tuition

Then i found my happiness again

I feel so happy when the children were motivated

Manage to teach and encourage saRanya to play the recorder

She was so shy at first because the other boy could play so fast

but with self practice and a little help

in the end when i was driving her home.

she asked if she could play merry had a little lamb for me :D

was also able to help iMtiaz in his reading

the mom was pretty happy seeing her boy willing to listen to pammie's guidance

thank God

Don't worry you'll be able to catch up soon :)

At the meant time

i was thinking of where to do my asg tonight

since i know I got no "space" at home although the house is huge.

it's the same as having "peace" when switching off your phone in a movie

Suddenly instead of starbucks or mcdonalds

or the long missed LCS library

I decided to take advantage of my privileges and my penny

I went to Djay...

a vacant room to do my assignment

Again like i said the atmosphere was light

The maids and the teacher were all relaxing after their work

Happily I sneak my laptop up

and tug myself in an empty room

Worked out on my asgment and WHollA~

I'm like 85% done now...

Just some more editing and pictures to be added.

I can't believe God was so gracious...

I found my second home..

Or perhaps 3rd home if church is my 2nd.

I'm so glad i had the peace of mind

I thank God i could let go of all that happen in the afternoon

and manage to complete 85% from

mumbo jumbo of 30% from the whole 2 weeks.

However i seriously

i don't know how should i

communicate with her anymore

It seems always one way traffic

and hard core insults

i guess to be at peace

I wanna avoid seeing her

and speak less to her...

until then I wonder

I really wonder...

Thank you God.

I know you love me...

and I'm in your safe hands...

hmm..also wanna thank you

prince charming...

for the chocolate fontier?fondon?

It was thumbs up..

sorry i was so sleepy

eyes nearly closing

when we're talking...

I'm glad w how things are now

that I'm getting to know you better

and for the space u're giving me

to grow up as a student,daughter and a better being.

thanks for letting me be independent in my career

liking you because you've helped me so much is

an absolutely NO-NO.

It's got to be more than that ...

i guess that's all i got to say...

sigh..

pamiO for the "hell" of a day on earth.

Good day

Had such a great day today

Manage djay and kjay

He gave me opportunity

to be responsible

to gain confidence

to have some free time while travelling to both sides.

Used the free time to book court

at dream centre

Got save by god's merciful angel

nearly got hit by

the mph red van

when coming out of church

weird, i didn't see any car coming until it was 1 feet away

perhaps camouflage...

Thank God the driver was more alert than me.

went back djay for lunch

talk to mrs khoo

then rush back home to do my homework

slept

woke up back to kjay for tuition

received enquiries

another opportunity to grow

bought groceries at pasar malam

go back djay dinner

back home - home work

badminton

yeah had time for sports! ♥

the matches were good fights..

chells and baby chuen

ian and soph

ivan and pamie

however i missed 3 times at the ending

which caused ivan to eat the VVS sausage.

sorry partner.. :D

still such a good sports man n chilli eater *thumb up*

had a good yamcha too

havent ate so much for supper for quite a long time

prince charming came to watch princess play badminton

we should have more badminton time soon!

love love,

pamie

princess day out

a file of flash cards dropped on the toes

2 toes that have newly born nails were flashing red bumps

we cleaned the cupboard

found some useful toys

all in all we still need to do much more cleaning

mural ideas need to hop out soon.

those who are weary He gives rest

prince charming came along to get first aids restock

then he went phone hunting

iphone the fun phone how we long to get you

just that you are very over priced

maybank mamak finally got to eat you

chuenie pammy still loves you

yippie cup always our place

gymrami we learned a new taste

oh i almost forgotten

stranger bore 7 puppies!

and the path seems heading right again.

no stress no stress no stress

everything seems to the left left left.

mommy have a safe day trip

i'll go driving

i'll do the rounds

i'll get the courts :)

then badminton hopefully.

kayz

first day

headache hide.

sleep tight...

princess p for the day.

2010 school reopens

Mushroom soup and Popcorns..

you made my day.

Pan Mee and Movies...

we make the day.

thank you for

your patients..

your troubles...

your kindness....

speedy recovery for your tummy!

Today morning was blur and puffy but caught up with the tempo. Then, things start to catch up. I was busy instructing what i could see needed cleaning and making sure things was in order just as mommy always wanted little pammy to be able to help. But I'm glad I learn to use WE. So the teachers and pammy, we gave mommy lotsa ideas and hopefully we'll be able to carry it out and make sure more improvements to be done to the school.

Tomoro will be round two.

I'm all ready.

:)

-pamiO-

what a girl should have know.

yesterday something so drastic happen.

Thinking back i wish things didn't get so hurtful. However, perhaps it's what best..because i wasn't sure what i was doing.. Perhaps things moved too fast at the beginning for me and the foundation wasn't there. I stumbled upon my own respond, my own unreadiness. I should forever remember this. that i shouldn't agree upon anything if I wasn't sure and wasn't ready. Simply because it will hurt people. Even though the feelings was there i shouldn't have rush into it. If it was suppose to be it will still come back when i'm really ready...

2 days in a roll I was given a wake up call. How to be an honorable lady... not frm mommy cause pammy falls under the daughter that don't listen to her mommy.

Perhaps i was shaken from the leaders. Dos and donts ...

I wish I was born with better thinking skills but somehow somethings I take so long to realize, understand or feel right. what are our principles in this life ...

I hope time will show us the way...

My lesson learned..

learn to say no.

we don't fail until we give up.

when giving don't expect for returns.

No close doors.

don't rush.

just go slow.

don't bottle up.

be patient with one and other.

6 Ws

practice the 10 commandments

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

The very 1st post for the new year!! :D

yeah 2009 is gone and behind us now.

I wanted to make sure i don't bring forward any work of 2009 to 2010. So the last morning of 2009, I rushed my to-do-list for the school and personal errands all the way till noon.

Sadly, i could not finish because I was so drenched out and was starting to feel so low in spirit to celebrate and welcome the New Year.

Not realizing sooner i succumb to my old self-centered ways and wanted to be aloof spending my new year laying back at home alone. I'm so sorry dear for hurting you, saying that i was really tired.

But God being God always bring angels to help us. Festive Spirit started overflowing from girlfriends and cell group members and they poured some over to my empty tank. Moreover, dear made his effort to come dreamcentre for buffet.

Was just telling bestie how it wasn't easy to be in a different environment for the special person in our heart.

Then again, only God will be able to make it happen.

SPIRIT MAN be STRONG, FLESH be WEAK! :P

So, Pammy pulled through the night with God's help :) . She event met a long lost best friend @ church! Which was one of the most amazing thing that happened besides her dear's baptism. How Amazing God can be.

Though the whole night was a spiritual warfare in Pammy's mind of who should follow who to who's church.

The answers came pouring in.. breaking Pammy's pampered youngest child behavior to get all she wants :/. hehe... You'll never win God so don't even attempt to try. Just be obedient.

The voice manage to convince me that i should wake up earlier and follow dear to GT then later go back to dreamcentre for 10am celebration and Ministry for Every Sunday this 2010! Hmm...so that would mean

Double Celebration

+

Kids Ministry(1pm-4pm)

=

Almost Whole Day at Church !

So, Pammy told God that she Likes It.

She Likes the Idea He Pop-ed up

The Deal was then a DEAL :P