Sweet Surrender

I feel that God had been so gracious and wonderful to me.

I feel so blessed...

God I thank you for the wonderful experience this year.

For the new and good transitions in my life.

1. Opportunity to grow with kids Ministry
2. Great Girlfriends, best friends and childhood friends.
3. The Boy friend - btw i ♥ shopping w u..*haha
4. For my wonderful neighbor.
5. Caring older colleagues and college mates...

others things as well that i can't think of at the moment... all so new, splendid, awesome and Arh...my usual motivation that I'm trying not to enjoy...FUN! :P *grow up pamie!*

God,

For my new year resolution I want...

1. To grow stronger with You
2. To work harder in Life to glorify You
3. To have more wisdom to live this life
4. To live life with no regrets and to leave the past behind and start new and a FRESH !!

For the meantime that's all...

My wishlist..

...Stay tune :P

EVERYONE!!! BYEBYE 2009 HELLO 2010!!

HUGS!~*

pamio

P/s: boy friend..can't wait for ur water baptism this thursday :) congratz in advance :P

Uni on Saturdays

I can't believe it..it's nearly towards year end. My last semester is only for another 2 more months. not much lectures already..It's time for our own revision... I really have to manage my time well for God's works, Reality's work, studies and love...

It's time to shake off that baby attitude...

It's something being with "you" made me realize that i'm no kid anymore... :)

I think i have been living in my childish thinking especially the youngest child syndrome...It's time to break forth and break through in all aspects in life - work, responsibilities and relationships... so much to achieve...making it happen bit by bit..

Dear God, help us to repent from our wrongs and keep to your commandments in the bible..Help us to live a life that can be your salt and light..Forgive us if our ways were once or is foolish and continue to guide us and lead us to your ways...Thank you for your grace...in jesus name, amen...

In this world nobody is perfect but we'll have to try to our best...

Let it not happen when we completed our race or game in this temporary life and we shout out to the Lord, "Lord, Lord here i come before you. Your loyal servant" but He says" Who are you I don't know you..."

By then it will already be too late...

The last grain of sand in the enormous hour glass of repentance has reached the bottom.

By doing good and going to church is not enough... only by believing and accepting his son we will be save.

He is the only way and the truth... We can be assured by the scripture John 3:16 in the Bible.

" For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."John 3:16

-Pamio-

Christmas is Coming!

In this special season let's make our time to appreciate and remember what the lamb of God did for us...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

and a very happy birthday to JESUS CHRIST.

also wanna take this opportunity to wish A Very BLessed birthday to all the December babies especially my hot girlfriends!!!

~Pris and Sophia ~

LOVE _love

pamelyn signing off..

with full of energy and passion... cos Christmas is Coming!! :D

=]

a change in life

FB scares me....

Totally~

just by accepting the yes request to a rel. The whole earth knows ( not that i don't want to let others know but yeah i'm a "shy" person and sometimes like some stuff to be less known)...I know im exagerating but just by meeting dajie's uk church friend to collect something another da jie's friend already ask that aunty to check out on seng chye. like *huh*..just 1 day only... but thank you aunty and jiejies for your concerns and advices. We'll definitely need to watch our butt now. *no naughty naughty* or else people sure bound to know.. :P

I just wanna let you know that in some ways i'm really glad that you asked and we took our friendship to another level. thank you for all that you've done :)

It's not easy..just first day out together got scolding from mom :D

but i no longer wanna be the pamie who quits easily..at least not with just mommie's lecture...

besides it's not that we hiding anything..

I guess the whole earth really knows.

*hughugs*

Carry me if i fall down..

running in this Race...

Yesterday suddenly a sister called me in the morning.

I didn't expect to receive this advice or comment after

everything. Maybe it's not enough...What happen on

friday didn't make things better. Did i really give them

such a poor image? not that i bothered...But I guess

i did gave a poor image.. Not now that i have

changed but all the irresponsible attitude from last time..

plus Friday...I'm Sorry I know i'm wrong.

Ask me again...

and my answer is I'm Serious and not playing a fool...

To add salt to the wound when i reached there at 1pm

just to make sure that i'm not late again... thinking i

was suppose to be there at 1.30. Clowning sifu face

wasn't too happie then i asked her "am I late?"

just so in case...I was really late..

to my disappointment I really was...

She said "yeah...I said 11.30am.." I really felt like i'm

being fooled with time...

Yesterday in the midst of rushing i quickly red her

message and deleted it.. How...?

How could i have mis looked?

The feeling was so horrible was really lost of words...

but the will was still there...alot more other negative

thoughts pop out.

But God is faithful...

Whatever you do,work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord,not for men.

COLOSSIANS 3: 23

Trisha,CG Leader! thank you for sharing this just this friday..

I thought it was not important cos it's soo obvious..

who else is our master, right? But when circumstances

sometimes the devil make us human think and do

otherwise when i say human i meant anybody

including myself.

I have never received such an uneasy feeling in church

before but that was 1 good try devil... >:(

I continued doing my thing and whatever aunty janice

assigned me..when the day was finally over we were

blessed with pizze hut and KFC..Went with sister to

celebration..

then came home continue the holiday programme stuff..

then suddenly gastric attacked...

but i choose to overcome it with sleep because

i was too tired to eat..

So scary day...

Sister i really meant what i say when i thanked you for the

advice because that is going to be my vow... So that

i don't turn back on my words no matter what happens.

The tide is rough now....But I'm Strong !!!

cos my God is an awesome God :) and..

Thank you for those who helped me to helped the holiday

programme too.. i will not forget your helping hands...

..thank you..

pamiO

speechless

Today God is faithful again..

I can't believe i actually woke up late to go for the children leader's meeting. Like oh my goodness?! 10 am already and i'm still in bed?!!! I was like all ready to attend already the night before.

Little did i know that God allowed it to happen because I'm so unprepared for the kindergarten Holiday Programme. and and This is like the only day everyone can sit down and discuss...

I really can't do this alone. People please Lead !!! I mean God ..Please guide them to lead us!!! Im lost !!

ew ew..i hate my self...

But god i like the way u reveal everything to me gradually it's like the best drama plot ever!!!

Thank you God..Im going to trust you and commit this programme into your hands...

Sorry that i'm not good enough..

PamiO

signing off...

Belated Birthday Post :D

Click speaker for sound. Point at pic for captions.. :D

Thank you also to those that are not in the slide show.

Those people who wished me through sms, calls,fb and msn. The ones that are behind the cameras.Yeah Yeah i'm Talking bout you.. Thank You..

Thank you Thank You. :)

Love u guys all.

the song can be turn off by clicking the speaker sign beside the human head icon. :D

Holiday for pamie

Today was suppose to be a busy day just like the pass 2 days and last week but God being the great abba father always provide rest to those who needs it. :)

Initially i wanted to find those songs from emerge rising stars 2009.

All things are possible and

fly me like a canon ball.

(anyone has it can share? =D)

Whenever negative thoughts starts to attack my subconcious the holy spirit hurriedly covered me with these 2 praise songs that i learned from emerge rising! trully it was a blessing to go for that conference. Thank you City Harvest!

May God Cont' to Prosper that church and guide the leaders there so that they can touch more lives.amen!

* God, you brought me to where I am and now use me for your kingdom sake :D *

Hugs and Kisses

haha..nope im not talking bout hugs and kisses but yeah suddenly i feel like hugging specky girl,cookie monster sister and rakazitsu.I miss you all dearly i pray that everyone is fine.and God is sustaining us. :D

there is this song that we taught the kids at pj old town got stuck in my wave length the whole week on and off. :D

Anyone sang this song before?

I will have no other gods before you,
Only you will reign as my heart's King,
I will have no other gods before you,
I will put you first in everything.

With all my heart

With all my soul

With all might

I wanna love you more..

I just learned it while teaching the kids there with my clowning sifu (aunty elsie) , and aunty kangaroo (joey mak) hehe.. With sign language too.. Nice nice.

I can't find it on youtube except for this beautiful girls practicing :D

but here is how it goes...

God,

I just want to say that once again you are faithful

You always amaze me on the signs you give me that it is real..

that it is what you want me to do.

I don't know how i found the time for teaching there..but just because i was obedient you gave me even more. I'm Thankful I'm Grateful.

There are other things I'm really thankful and grateful too but until I have a confirmation i shall need to go through the process.

hugs and kisses

from me! :D

passionatepam

Monday Rocks!

The Title was supposed to be Monday Blues.. because Mondays especially first Mondays of the month tends to be so blue..

Nope! no longer in my dictionary now.

remember something I saw in my previous post?

"Don't pray to God that he will give you an easy life but pray that he makes you stronger?"

I can't believe he took it for real and so soon! and Yes..literally I got A Round of Sparing today. Maybe i asked for it and he allowed it to happen. It was pretty bad but it was a "burning bush" in disguise.

Those Words stabbed me so badly. So hard that i couldn't wake up for the longest time. Funny, how I talked to God and made a deal with him then I stood up and walked again.

(I realize that point he kept his promise right away because i would not have got the will to cont' I would have ran far far away from what i was suppose to face, cry sleep, wake up pretend like it didn't happen before and do that for another year and three years down the road and for the rest of my life.)

After everything was more than done for the day. I reached home, kissed my bed and hit the replenish button. After I was replenished, We progressed on our deal. :D

that's when the little voice said "Yo girl! change the title to "Monday RaWks!" "...

Wuahaha... ;)

Lord,

May I continue this journey with you for i not only left my shell behind but now my skin as well .

In your perfect time and place. amen.

To steadfast and press on

"Anyone who know this song reveals their age."

quote from Pastor Chris Kam's sermon - living as God's people. :D

This world is not my home I'm just passing through
my treasures are laid up somewhere beyond the blue
the angels beckon me from Heaven's open door
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore

O Lord you know I have no friend like you
if Heaven's not my home then Lord what will I do?
the angels beckon me from Heaven's open door
and I can't feel at home in this world anymore.

I am an alien in this world and a stone but a living one when I have chosen to believe in Him! :D

God I'm delighted to serve you wherever you have put me at.

The whole day was dedicated to God *happy*. It was nearly 6pm when Aunty Elsie sent me home. Mom made dinner but sleep was more essential. Suddenly, at 8pm i opened my eyes the room lights were on and Mom greeted me with a joyful face. She was happy with a good news. I'm glad when she gave praise to God. He has gave us enough for what He feels is right for us. Thank You God. Will continue to have 100% faith that you will provide.

I also can't believe when we went pasar malam we bought so many vegetables with just RM 5. un-incredible but totally incredible when that's all the coins and notes you can dig out. (lol)

A little from the notes given :

Faith : Relating us to what God has done in the Past.

Hope : Relating us to what God is going to do in the Future.

Love: Relating us to what God is doing in the Present.

While leaving the Drop-off centre at PJ old town , I saw these printed words pinned up

"Don't pray that God will give you an easy life, pray that he will make you strong."

Till then...

Adios Amigo...<)=o))

Unwind and Retune

pamiO's past relationships.

(thank you for the great help boomz reporter! it made me realize..)

all in all it can be concluded that indeed some were so silly, some were bumpy and some was pretty sweet.

Though all seems pretty long ago, some way or another the residue may cause phobias in the present or the future.

But the Lord heals I trust him more than myself or others. He guides too and the holy spirit leads I trust. However, truthfully when it happens or when one is really in one they get blinded. Sometimes it's by the worldly thinking or some spirit I can't identify.

However it may be, the last thing I would want to do is repeat any mistakes I have ever done. What's the point of repeating and falling down for the same thing over and over again. Do I not learn? Perhaps this is the thought i keep reminding myself.

My journaling note is empty this week. God help me listen to you again. There is one story I kept remembering from last week's - Genesis 12:10-20 Abram in Egypt.

The Quest (NIV) Study Bible explains

Why would God punish Pharaoh for an unintentional sin?(Gen 12:17)

The story illustrates how far God is willing to go to protect his own people when they act foolishly.It also shows innocent must suffer sometimes for the sins of others. Here Pharoah and his house suffered because of Abram's fears and lies. God did this to protect the mother of Israel and to preserve his plan of redemption through Abram.

May I not cause innocent to suffer too.

I long to be the Mary who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said.

(Luke 10:38-41)

scanned and coloured with gimp 2 - June 2009? (C) :D

Rainy day

Time pass by so fast...

In a blink the day is gone..

Now that everyone is overseas web cam seems to be the "in" thing. It's really Fun. Definitely fulfilling to get to see and talk to the people we miss too.. :D

It doesn't have to be just connecting with friends and family abroad, It could just be saving one person's time and energy used to concentrate while caught in a traffic jam. Ultimately saving on petrol : D So instead of driving out to meet up and have a group discussion on our assignment Chuin and I webcam-ed.

How grateful are we to be in Malaysia with unlimited Internet access. We can even snack yummy food on our desk like Food mOnster while talking and doing her assignment and make our friend the other side jealous or hungry :D. *crunch crunch*

What a Brilliant Idea :P..

food mOnster manage to influence Chuin to download ooVoo. Yay!

Great!

I have craving to stock up on things to munch! Can anyone be gracious to me and send some imported chocolates over. It's bad to splurge on Junk..Stop eating non-nutritious food, food mOnster!

cheeriO

from,

d' Food mOn.

BEWARE angry post ahead...

Relationship is soo complicated!

can anyone explain to me? why???

At this moment now I'm so confuse....

and is terribly jealous of "GBIE".

Do you know who is GBIE??

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meet my rival !!!

can you feel how insecure, small and intimidated i feel losing to a

~ GERBIL ? ~

GF i can understand how GBIE manage to capture your attention from us....

for more info you can check here .

" The Breach of Contract"

where the confession is....

Just as "BOOMZ Reporter" have to learn 1 Corinthians 13:4-13.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres...

So does pamiO have to as welll . . .

PRis!! Sophia!!! we must persevere :DDDD

OMEEE GOODNESS... LOL

save me....thanks for hearing me rant GF pris~ :P

Sweetest Dream :)

My pass pass week was the best week ever :).

Since the camp, the birthday and the special moments with the special person and very very special peoples who celebrated with me and for me.

The approach towards the kindy (though i thought the approach was getting better i wish i was the ms.pam before going the camp- the one who trusted God, remembering He is there, and going with His presence etc), there is a distance with the kidz, teachers and me (why do i feel so far away) perhaps maybe with God too.

Perhaps though i was actively attending church but i missed what He was speaking to me. My mind was clouded with worldly thoughts again (the reality has defeated me for a moment- a whole week on and off). Just few hours back, I returned to the person i want to stay in :D (a good follower of Christ and the bubbly pam)!

I got sometime to rest and reflect on my own, after shower (had a sweaty and dirty time gardening and playing in the rain the whole evening till dark today- awesome!). As i was resting on my pillow i suddenly had a thirst to open the bible and the page i opened was at Matthew 6-7. Cold air gush down my whole body, I felt like crying but i hold it back cos mom was on my study table, some people would says it's the conscience but I know who was giving me a wake up call.

"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

Mt 6:27 Do Not Worry.

I wonder have I been sucked dry spiritual by my surrounding and encounters in life this few days or this recent weeks?

the other words about Judging Others, Ask,seek and knock , A tree and it's fruit , The Wise and Foolish Builders (Mt 7) all of it struck me so deeply...

I wish I came running to the bible earlier so that I could attempt all the situation with a different heart. But all is not too late I realize I understand why Pastor Nancy said that we should do our Journals. It's compulsory though she said she's not going to budge in our privacy :D .

Yes yes.. perhaps i should also bring this up cos i will need ample prayer from any good Samaritan reading this. Im really really excited for being officially committed and involved in a ministry at church. All this while been helping out only but aunty Janice said helping is not enough they need commitments now.

So here I am God, I totally have no idea but I know you will train me up and use me and my talent (or coming talents) for your kingdom. Only if i could have the same heart to work for my mom. =3 (pamie quickly think it up how does the concept works! issit because i can't serve 2 masters? but what if i serve 1 which is God) God could you help me to serve You in the kindy too? because im really losing my way. amen.

Hmm. besides that "if" i owe the special someone some explanation.

-the lovely dream was with you-

>___<

Yet... it is very obvious i have not sorted out my life (which is pretty troublesome.i guess u would know by now after hearing the annoying me talking bout work all the time) and can the "u n me" hurdle waves or time would just pass us by?

GirlFriends~! i'm still faithful kay... *cough cough* eeks.. :D

sorry for the WORDY post...I wanna post the very very awesome 20th birthday of mine with lotsa pics to share with whoever who follows my sour honey pop pie. just that the picture are on the way. so stay tune.. :P