London update

*dust* dust*

Sorry bloggy. I've been setting my priorities and home work comes first.

today I woke up 10 pass 12 in the noon. I know that's quite late isn't it, been having my insomia kicking back after my 3rd week in the UK. i really don't know the cause. Another reason for allowing myself to sleep in more is because i don't have classes on mondays and tuesday.

I got ready pretty quick and headed for KT office to work with my dajie. Clocked in at 45 pass 12 in the noon and got started. Yeah I know dajie's office is so near our abode right?

I learnt how to send invoices to accounts department and issue receipts for Dajie's parent for the encounter week they pay for their children to go for.

I'm relatively surprise with myself because by the time we finished our work it was half pass 6 in the evening. I'm used to be very self-centered and would put my uni/ college work first in the list than helping others especially mom's kindy work. i would get very agitated when she asked me to do something for her.

I'm delighted i'm not anymore that way. Probably I really enjoy doing this type of work or probably is the Holy Spirit controlling my movements and thoughts. I really enjoyed doing all those work although i had homework pilling up to complete. Which i'm going to start doing in a while. I'm certain and proclaiming i will complete my work in due time because the strenght of the Lord is upon me.

Cheers!

i will be putting pictures soon!

Hugs and Kisses! Thanks for all the birthday wishes!

Personal Statement to the College

Date: 24th June, Friday

I would like to apply to study in West Thames College for the Foundation Diploma in Art and Design as the course out line has attracted me. I am very interested in learning about fine arts, communication and multimedia, 3D design, Surface pattern and decoration.

I have research many colleges for this course and to this point West Thames College has offered a variety and broader range of stuidies for arts and design and that is what I am looking for.

I regard my self as a very suitable candidate for this course as my thoughts would be more mature, having been experiencing the working world for nearly 2 years in various fields . I am therefore ready and have the right mind set, attitude and spirit to pursue and graduate int his art and design industry.

Some affiliated work with this course is being an art teacher in the children department of my favorite Art house here in Malaysia. We were to teach children fundamental drawing, colouring, painting methods and making crafts. Ultimately the creativity came from each child exploring their ideas, we merely guided them when they encountered obstacles. Working in this place has helped me so much in thinking out of the box daily.

My attributes such as being able to draw, paint, research for ideas, and doing crafts would be able to assist me to complete this course. Born in a digital era also gives me an upper hand to be computer literate, design tools and softwares would most certainly wet my appetite.

I am also most excited to be able to learn at a global city, London. it would be a grat honor to learn with and from friends coming from every part of the world, partner with lecturers and tutors to future improve my self at your prestigious college.

Thank you very much!!

YES PAMIE!!!

since u can wrote till you are so vain then go ahead and prove that you can do it.

YOU CAN!!!

you can do all things through Christ who strengthens u! phil 4:13

Tuesday stress

I'm so exhausted. Packing and making sure everything in Malaysia is in order before i leave for UK. I just can't wait to sub in and sleep for 15 hours till i arrive London. A whole different environment. I pray i can just treat it as a holiday and go with a non stress, bubbly attitude but it's not easy knowing this time results are expected.

Sometimes I'm a little afraid to leave my home and familiar friend and family to a whole new alien place. =/ which shouldn't suppose to be...

cos 3 years back i pledge to return to London- my paradise. and I know god has prepare a plan for me there.

God!!!

sustain me! i think i'm breaking down soon.

never enough

you say money is the most important.

for comfort for fame...

give me a million dollars and all will be fine.

tell this to a 6 years old maybe they will agree with you.

truly is that realistic? the more we have the more we want more.

sadly more is never enough.

Lord,

When only would we learn to be satisfied? only You can satisfy this human heart of ours.

sometimes You don't give us too much so that we would learn the art of being humble and not boastful with the excessive. I pray i have learned from others mistake and will not follow after.

God help me to be contented in terms of materials and wealth. Help me to learn how to manage existing wealth, current, future blessings...

I pray that i would not have to be lost in the wilderness for 40 years before entering this kingdom of milk and honey of yours :) !

slurps i love you Jesus.

nightmare

after so much laughing at leaders advance i'm put out to the world to be knock down.

sigh. happy moment just dun last..that's life...

I pray my patients will last me..

and all these negative thought will leave me...

that i will be strong yet humble and kind as matter takes a stroll on me...

i will not shout back but will just keep silents till things gets better...

i've got a party to attend tomoro. =P

surprise!

and another retreat to go for..i really hope it will be 2 sunnydays so pamie can go out to play..

inner thoughts

do you believe that it's not the person that come into your life, or the place you go that is going to end your misery...? it's within... it's how you bring your self that will bring changes...why do i feel that i behave differently with different people...certain people and certain places in life just makes me feel so happy...certain places and certain people just sucks the joy out of me...how sad..

I'm not picking my phone for i don't want to hear anymore nonsense... =(

Leaders Advance

I have never laugh so much in my whole entire life. Thank you for the Fun night that everyone have put in all they've got. It was so Hilarious...

to rise when you feel you are falling...

My emotions is about to take over my rationality. It feels like a test from God. Seeing if i would give in to emotions and behave otherwise. Would I behave the way He wants me to? strong and have faith in Him...He wouldn't give me a task too tough for me to endure... How am I going to handle greater things if give up and give in just encountering such small matter... hang in there pamie help is coming on the way. just sit back and see his hands upon this matter. His a miracle will appear once again...

suspense

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why they keep us in suspense...=( can't they just tell us the results?

caution (emo)

To ignore, to confront, to get angry, to argue, to inform, to pray, to cry, to scream, to forget, to lie, to wait, to run, to sleep, to drink, to smoke, to die, to swim, to hurdle, to laugh, to eat, to read, to tell, to ask, to give up, to fight, to blog.

hehehe....

I'm currently reading a book called kite runner. Got the book from keat ming. It's a pretty good book can't wait to finish it and know what's the ending.

I guess people get emo if they can't find an answer to their matter. Perhaps there is just no answer to it at the moment. we just got to wait and see what God has installed for us.

emotionless...

pamie

p/s don't be disappointment but press on, the devil is happy when we give in to negative thoughts and do silly things...must be aware and not succumb to the trap.

Terrific Tuesday

For me the most memorable thing i did today was having a bible study session with my mom.

You didn't hear me wrong.

Indeed. I did with the help of the holy spirit i think we ministered to her.

because when she was sending me back to the kindergarten she was muttering to her self " Let go...Let go.."- to Let go of chasing possession and power for oneself in the secular world. the context came from Mark 10: 17-25.

All of us have the tendency and the temptation in our surroundings therefore we equally need to be watchful and not let the evil spirit hoax us into trouble.

It's funny how dreams and questions have been boggling my mind. Yes every night i would like to dream now -INCEPTION.

In the afternoon i manage to put JET JET to sleep. YAY! and myself resting by his side.

I was half asleep and could sense the sound of people opening the door entering the kindergarten. It was quite unlikely for me because i usually sleep like a log. It sounded like someone was returning. I thought perhaps my mom. The anonymous came in the room, i could hear JET JET crying but the person carried the baby out from the sarung and laid beside me.. I thought this person is a lady cause I thought I felt boobs I had goosebumps cause it's weird that someone would come in n hug me. quite afraid I peeped and realize there was no one... just Jet Jet and myself. A lie awake on the bed thinking about what happened. It didn't felt like a dream I thought it was real...It was creepy...

Few moments later, Jet Jet really woke up. He only slept for half an hour. Crying cause of discomfort I took him out from the cot and brought him to his play cot out side. Made his milk for him. Woohoo..I manage to find a better way of letting him drink his milk from the milk bottle. ^^V easy for me and for him.

Later mom came in the kindy. She bought asam laksa and rojak. Wow ! it was so Yummy. After that Jet was suppose to take him bath but mom had to go to the bank. I finished sweeping the school and decided to feed Jet his dinner (much easier this time) before mom come back to shower him, while Jet takes his shower I quickly moped the school.

Only left for badminton 10 pass 5pm.

I manage to really sweat and exercise despise playing for only more than half an hour. Sophia and pris said my badminton very strong. I'm surprise to hear that but I do feel I'm getting closer with "United LemOn" my new Li-Ning racket. Kinda understand her ways.. =)

Leaders meeting was cancelled because of leaders advance camp coming up. Can't believe I would feel weird not going to church. It's like not going to work. I guess I'm too caught up with busyness in life. Ask me to rest I feel weird... ( Only for church and not secular job) but yeah..Annie suggested a good idea..She said she wanted to come back from church early to read. but she came back almost 9pm. tsk tsk*

so here I am doing my reflection...

picture of the day.

not very clear...mom looks like a good grandmother. =D

cheers

pamelyn

a nanny monday

This morning mom knocked my door to inform me that our vietnamese maid has not turned up for work. already expected she would be leaving us from the words she had been saying. I really miss her though, I hardly had time to bond with her since the first few months she arrived and even lesser when i stopped helping in the kindy.

She being not around I came in to take care of JET JET! yeap this adorable, handsome and happy laughing 9 months old baby who just learnt to sit on his back and stand. walking? nope not yet =D

besides that i also had the opportunity to cook lunch. yeah, ABC soup and chicken in black sauce. no encouraging or good comments from neither mom nor ms ang. sigh..I thought it was bearable and tasty even without MSG. hmm perhaps because this 2 can cook pretty well. they said the chicken is not cooked enough and the taste did not enter the chicken. I agree I thought about that but didn't want to over cook the chicken i guess i could have cooked it awhile more longer.

JET JET gave be a backache.. holding his milk bottle for him while he lies in his baby cot just busy sucking. XD i was super exhausted at 4pm suppose to put him to sleep but i slept instead..hehe. I dare to sleep cause mom came back from her errants and it was her turn to be the servant. Bravo!

Conclusion i can't imagine being a "KAKAK" and being so tired physically takng care of baby.. I wish my future baby would be able to listen to instruction..HAHAHA..amen!

who knows? anything is possible with our mighty God. LOL!

(think positive pamie think positive...)

God is good i pumped rm 20 of petrol when i left the house to fetch aunty christine to buy popo some medical stuff. She spent me a nice dinner and gave me rm 20 for petrol..swt..i can't believe what you give in return you will receive too...I learned that i dun have to be stingy because God will provide especially when u didnt expect anything in return.

oooo...it's pouring!! nice time to sleep in =D

Good nite!*hugs*

pamio signing off!

kid's ministry

I handed over my cell to aunty sharon today. It's amazing how God puts things into place. How he puts certain people in certain season to meet each other in certain journey in life. Heavy hearted i had to let go of my KC7 sheeps which I attended to for 7 months to another Shepard as i'm going to leave for UK. It was an on the job training, very fulfilling learning experience for me I guess my task has came to an end. I had to pass my responsibility that came along when i took up this position to someone else that could commit themselves and love these children.

I just realize how much i love these Indian kids. Although sometimes they don't listen to instructions and jump all around like monkeys not all but some and not all the time.


I will miss you all!!! Laysah, devitharshini, prakash, ellentamilan, kyvend troy,R.shalini, Shalini Rajendran, Yashila, Mugilan, philip david, Mathan, Kanaga, Katheeraven, Darshini Kabut, Sri Deva Simson, Ariswaran, Anusha, Pavelina, Hirtikka...many more.

If I say I only teach and not learn from them (these children) my heart is stone-cold and I'm all self-righteous.

pamio's saturday

leadership training was really awakening. Awakening as in making me realize so much ways we can come about things. So much to change and relearn and apply in my life. Thank you for the opportunity to learn and be better vessel for you, lord.

we had badminton right after that. I was pretty restless because i forgotten to bring my shoes. hmm...forgetful me. but really enjoyed playing with mark. I can see improvement in him. Fast learner! =D well i wish to play more matches and improve my skills. get tired easily. sigh.

later we were suppose to swim at mark's place but it rained like cats and dogs. we went to the gym instead. and it was so tiring. awesome! i picked up jujitsu from mark saw! =D so fun to see guys being tortured. yay..attacking the weak points of our joints. thanks mark! at least i don't feel so vulnerable physically anymore. i know small in size people can make huge people fall on their knees... haha

it was dinner time already i decide to accept aunty christine's invitation. Had dinner with the chuahs at sterling. i was very reluctant to leave early as i was burden to be with them. I know I'm not blood related with them but somehow i'm burden to help them with whatever means i can. Making the atmosphere lighter by watching dramas with them. sorry that i can't do much. Poh Poh stay strong i want to see you tomorrow and bring you back to Malacca if no one is free.

that's all for now.another long day tomorrow. God please make me a fresh tomorrow and rejuvenate me as I rest. in jesus name, amen!

nites!

look !! i have a room at mark's condo.

officially addicted to

BADMINTON!!

new li-ning racket (united lemon) and line 7 badminton shoe. =D

1 more month babeh! SIGH..

1 more month to do the things I ♥ in Malaysia !

1 more month to drive freely on the roads and meet up with the people I ♥ ...

1 more month to progress a solid foundation towards my faith...

1 more month that I'm going to be set out to a foreign place and my faith would be tested...would i be able to?

nothing is too big a problem for my Almightly Lord, huh? =]

btw, here is a testimony... =P

i no longer over sleep and precisely able to hear my alarm even though i sleep so late...the impossible has finally been overcome, huh ? thank you God =) *hugs*

mom and i had shang yee mee at lala cheong today!

yumz!

Terribly need to change!!

i have a habit that i need to change. Terribly need to change!!

the habit that i struggle to change is over sleeping for something. Occasions, events, classes & CHURCH!!!

why why does it always happen?

last time was the sarawak mission trip. Can you believe that i woke up by a miracle? it was literally something or someone hammering a nail into my brains...a terrible pain and head ache that woke me up at 4.30am. i was suppose to reach church at 4am. in the end another mission team member came by my house to fetch me so that mom didn't have to rush me to church. A MIRACLE is spelled across this incident. -2008-

Another important event that i missed last year was Leader's Rally. I woke up at 10.30am when i was suppose to reach church at 7.30am or 8.30 am. I was so devastated that day. Since i missed the opportunity to bond with the other leaders across all ministry in church. Also quite sad that i wasn't given a wake up call or miss call from anyone. I was very new then. But ultimately i was the only one to be blamed.. -2009-

This year i was given a wake up call just the moment when i woke up at 8.00am when i was suppose to be at church at 7am. The first thing that was shouted across the phone was "pamelyn where are you" then next sentence "you are very wrong you know?"..of course i knew...devastated again..I was suppose to be PA to ps. ra ndy christensen and help him get ready for his performance and conference workshop..-2010-

although God had better plans for me for the rest of the conference because i had the peace of mind to attend the other conference and workshop i have chosen to equip and adequate myself... thinking back it was really a bad habit..i can't continue over sleeping in life.

What if in future it was something that I was suppose to get and be blessed but i missed it...

GOD PLEASE HELP ME.

I know today it was again a miracle. i woke up at 12pm sharp, kids ministry at 1pm, you didn't allow me to over slept and be late for kids ministry. However i really wanted to wake up earlier for desiring God, 8.30am then attend church at 10am. I can't continue to be ignorant about this constance over sleeping habit. although i'm out whole day for kids then cg which ended bout 11-ish, I 'm still not happy that i can't wake up the time that i have set my alarm. Why can't i hear my alarm!! why can't i wake up before the time i have set...please..pamelyn you need to train your brain..haha

Although i know God had been faithful in many ways such as IELTS exam. Yea..that was early and you made it. UM exams...yea all just on time..had time to go breakfast too..nice. please pamelyn no more hanky panky..I have enough of irresponsible and indiscipline attitude. FOCUS!! =D

NETHERLANDS MADE IT!!!

NETHERLANDS won BRAZIL 2-1 !!!

dutch mens you guys are awesome!!!

lydia thanks for texting me man!!! XD

i don't dare to boast bout the orangiest but whatever happens...i still love you all !!!

JUST JIA YOU OKAY!!! i wanna see you all in the finals!!

GO HOLLAND.

*HUGS*!!!

HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF A SECOND CHANCE?

HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF

A SECOND CHANCE?

yes, i am given a second chance =D

God would bless those who work hard for something.

i must do my best in the design college.

if i fail i will have to pick up and do it again !

never going to let it down.

Must remember to go with the right attitude in life.

aja aja fightin! haha

Beautiful by Kari Jobe

CNU thanks for sharing this song in worship :) !

laughing by my self

Suddenly this really funny moments popped up and i was laughing by my self. *siao po* =p

What moment? Kheng yew rapping and pastor mike beat boxing...yes pardon me?...pastor mike beat boxing. (haha)

yesterday after church's 3 day fast & prayer we met up to discuss for lighthouse preps. Aunt Cynthia n uncle thomas had an invitation to watch an ABC(American born Chinese) Pastor's Concert. I heard Vanness Wu will be invited guess. Hallelujah he has accepted christ! =) Go find out! it's at PGRM. The amzing thing is this pastor is a rapper! =D i guess before he is coming they have already inspired us to practice our rapping.

YO JESUS YO PEOPLE IN THE HOUSE YO ONE DAY A BABY WAS BORN YO.. KEKE

Untimely-death

Figuratively I can't express how thankful I am to my Lord Jesus for how He molds and refine me. till today He is still molding me with great care and delicateness, only God knows my cracks and flaws...but yet a voice tells me He is going to make those cracks go away because He has made me and you special. So tell Him your worries and trust in Him.

It's so easy to say, and hard to do when one really faced a hard situation. However, God has tested me several times wanting me to trust Him even more... and yet He didn't fail me again, he is a faithful God. Again He showed me His love and care...It may not be what i wanted but it was more than that, It was what that was good for me. Everything, everyday that i am experiencing nowadays means so much to me.... Perhaps I didn't know how to appreciate life until very recently.

If i were to go back to the Father tomorrow just like a very inspiring brother in Christ, Joash from Taylor's PJ CF, I'm uncertain if i'm ready because I don't wish that the Lord takes me from here if I have yet to please Him..

Truly dear brother Joash, you have been a light in people's life. Though the times I have encounter you in CF is just a fistful you have already left foot prints. You will always be remembered as one who loved God, humbles himself and friendly. A true worshiper of God not just a singer on stage.

The sand in your hour glass may have reached the end. The runner has touched the end of the race track.

Here Joash wrote something about death in his blog and yeah i will have to agree with him.

Calling it tragic would be an understatement, however deeming it as part of God's timing and grace supercedes it all. However trite this sentence may sound, I'm living by it.

I've encountered my fair share of untimely deaths. Deaths that in all the common sense of the world, shouldn't have happened, not at this age, at this junction of time. And I am strengthened by the resolve, faith and determination shown by each family during this time. Not cursing, not raging; but simply a silent prayer of faith and surrendering to God for all it's worth. Now THAT'S faith.

Isaiah 25:8 "....The Lord God will wipe away tears from all faces...."

i'm back! *hugs*

I really had one of the best moments in life for the past few weeks...

Going aus and the sista coming back and then going for the edventure camp...

God is so fair..

referring back to my angry poems when they left...it all seems to be fulfilled.

Jiejie and koko has really build the ark for us.

God how could i have misunderstood you.

I know you are preparing the path for me..

how you are closing my uni doors..

but i believe you are opening the right one for me...

thank you that u've made me wiser than before and stronger too.

i just wanna grow closer to you...never let me go.

I gave my sister a scare.

When I suggested Lady Gaga bad romance (thanks to kelly =D) for a good song after we sang A-mei's ting hai.

this is precisely and partly why i favor sentimental songs in ktv.

Thanks to my sentimental-freak sista. haha!

and also guess what =D i managed to poison my sista's hubby

lady gaga bad romance for the rest of the day.

blueks. :D again thanks to kelly...the song is super catchie..

but the MV and lyrics is =x

1 Thessalonians 5:12-28

12 But we appeal to you, brothers and sisters,^* to respect those who labour among you, and have charge of you in the Lord and admonish you; ¹³esteem them very highly in love because of their work. Be at peace among yourselves. ¹⁴And we urge you, beloved,^* to admonish the idlers, encourage the faint-hearted, help the weak, be patient with all of them. ¹⁵See that none of you repays evil for evil, but always seek to do good to one another and to all. ¹⁶Rejoice always, ¹⁷pray without ceasing, ¹⁸give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. ¹⁹Do not quench the Spirit. ²⁰Do not despise the words of prophets,^{* 21}but test everything; hold fast to what is good;²²abstain from every form of evil.

23 May the God of peace himself sanctify you entirely; and may your spirit and soul and body be kept sound^* and blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. ²⁴The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do this.

25 Beloved,^* pray for us.

26 Greet all the brothers and sisters^* with a holy kiss. ²⁷I solemnly command you by the Lord that this letter be read to all of them.^*

28 The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you.^*

Group study for the book of Thessalonian is coming to an end. Again, we are reminded to live such a life. It's not easy to live this kind of life albeit so many influences evolve around us daily.

I'm looking forward for the coming Friday's CG. I'm going to miss hanging out with the josh-ians since i'll be away for Melbourne and hopefully Sydney if family and time permits.

http://ringgitandsense.wordpress.com/2010/04/26/lessons-in-life-at-90/

remember the sky

remember the sky you saw tonight for this youth might not come round again.

Does not want to just simply fall in ♥ again...

single Hood rocks! =)

I've just came back on a 6 am to 12 am road trip

visited both our grandma with family. lots of yummy and not so yummy food on the way...

kl-kampar-taiping-alorsetar-kuala kangsar-kl .

that's 18 hours away from home but car was home, home was bed. Zzzz. =D

Everyday I need you, God.

cnu made me fall in ♥ with this song.

The Fray - you found me.

and he sings it better than the Fray =O..

not fair at all...

i can strum i could sing of your love!

Every time i play,

the rain drops its ray,

and people start to pray...

"why can't the rain go away..." :)

Lord, every time i'm tempted and sway

You never forsake me, you stay

thank you for each day

I can praise you and be gay :D

i love You i love You yay

what more is there to say!

hooray, okay

both ends with "ay"

Don't be dismay

9th day from today

er Jie flies back to stay

we can go shopping monday to friday

then Australia is in May

we'll be there till the 16th day

by then it will be end of May

i'll be able to attend the extreme sports camp day!

YAY

YAY

YAY

who's coming with meh!

If i give up...

God won't give me up,

i don't think my stength can keep me to God

but God keeps me to Him, and I trust that what He started... He will complete

and because God works in my heart,

and I know God is faithful - I know I will be fastened to God..

and I know this because He said so in the Bible...

~JL 2010

a love letter

Credits to The friend's friend blog...

Here’s a love letter from God above especially for you!

My Child,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live.
Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother’s womb.
Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born.
Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don’t know me.
John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4

And I’ll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you.
Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you.
1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me.
1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I’ll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7

I have always been Father, and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is, will you be My child?
John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Father
Almighty God

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from a friend's friend blog

from a friend's friend friend's blog...

it touches me too ! :D hope you'll be blessed and touched too...

When I say that “I am a Christian,” I am not shouting that “I am clean living.”I’m whispering “I was lost, but now I’m found and forgiven.”

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When I say “I am a Christian” I don’t speak of this with pride.
I’m confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.

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When I say “I am a Christian” I’m not trying to be strong.
I’m professing that I’m weak and need His strength to carry on.

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When I say “I am a Christian” I’m not bragging of success.
I’m admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.

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When I say “I am a Christian” I’m not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.

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When I say “I am a Christian” I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.

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When I say “I am a Christian” I’m not holier than thou,
I’m just a simple sinner who received God’s good grace, somehow!

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Is there anything worthwhile here?

YES! this place is where every past and present happened...It's a battle field, a field of daisies that made me who i am today :)

closing the chapter of the day with this beautiful piano piece...

i have completed 85% of my application for kingston and uni of arts london.

10%

- go back to taman sea to get a pretty stamp for my self translation certs, photocopied cert. tks! ellie for the big help

-referee from some really dear people (school, mommy, maybe pastor? :D anyone tried that before?)

-some photostating...

-UCA-epson/ canterbury application 0/5 %

I'm counting down the days..

every time i turn back that page, i'm so grateful God..

I know it wasn't by my strength and might that i got that results.

So after putting in all my effort the rest i leave to you God.

Just give me a bit more strength to complete my port folio and after that I don't know what else to think but to fulfill any duty,task,work,fun, and loves that are still awaiting for me in msia...btw tks! joshSan for the portfolio ideas..it really gave me a kick start :)

God whether i get to go to my dream place to study i leave it all in your hands.

love you lots

pamiO

Jog in life

I went to bukit kiara to walk and jog with GF soph today. bump into joey! :D

when we first started, i was really excited and full of spirit. We were talking and walking... then got more and more tired during the walk... then people starts over taking you...then some of them ahead of you...and you want to catch up with them...just a simple walk..but so many feelings pops up...and you even ask yourself why can't you have bigger steps, or why aren't you fit enough or light enough to jog pass them...but you never gave up...you walk and walk and walk...finally now you are coming to the end...and you feel more relax...because you know that you are going to reach the end of the track....

Soph was right beside me when we were reaching the end...the feeling was good...while we were talking i thought of this illustration...

You know, this jogging track is really like our journey in life...at the beginning we are so happy and cheerful..and in between we face challenges, we become tired, we are tied down with expectations, sometimes our own expectations, but if we give up and stop at the middle of the road that's it...you would not see or feel how one would feel when they have finally reach the end...

more importantly it's during the journey...i remember that many times soph was there to walk at my pace you know larh i have short legs...hehe..it helped me through cos at times i was almost out of breath...yeah! Jesus is like that...

He is always with us...not some where near us..not behind us..not waiting in front of us...he is right beside us.. waving his arms at us wanting us to know his presents...that he is right beside us...to follow our pace while we are walking this journey in life...he is always there...in trial times and in good times...he is always there...some people walk through this journey ignoring his presents even though we know him...some don't even know of his presents...but some knows his presents and enjoys having this relationship with him...having a great conversation with him throughout the journey, sometimes even heart to heart talk...

it could be anything..maybe like hey God I'm really tired at work today, and I couldn't work along with them...come and teach me how to do so...or maybe like.. gees..the work is really hard and people are expecting to see something Good...i don't know if i could do it...Whatever it is...just don't ever give up... no matter how hard and tiring it is...don't give up..when we are finishing the track and we turn back then we just realize we have grown so much..we have become stronger learning from our mistakes, the experience have made us wiser and tougher people.

He loves us so much..

he really does :) here's a video..

love pamiO

To dear mommy

To Dear mamee..

Mama i just want to let you know I'm very proud of you..

The way even though it's hard to handle people in life...

You struggle through...and never give up in all odds! really nobody can be more determine than you.

I'm happy that you are happy..

I'm glad that you've been so independent on your foot again..

I pray that your wishes come true...

pamiO

pleads for human race ='(

human race is falling appart

and it saddens me

why do family members fight with each other?

What more those who does not know christ.

Even as brothers and sisters in christ we are fighting with one and other.

the commandments brothers and sisters..the commandments..

Let's build our relationship with our Father, Jesus and the holy spirit...

it's all about relationships and not religion..

Christianity is not a religion but a relationship.

i finally understood what that mean.

-pamiO-

Dream Girls

Beyonce Knowles acted in this movie. Lots of nice and beautiful voices.

Learn to step out and make a stand when things are wrong.

Material Girls

starring Hillary Duff, Hailey Duff and others.

This movie portrayed living an extravagance life. In the end both sisters learned to stand on their feet after calamity struck them. 2 very beautiful sisters in my opinion.

The Stepford Wives

The Stepford Wives

starring Nicole Kidman :) and others..

This movie is very thrilling in my opinion. It has a good twist and out come never failed to surprise me. Besides that i also love the story line that brings awareness for those things to happen. Indeed do not go against nature. It will be ugly... :P

after the storm is the rainbow

I'm done with UM!! :)

hopping to my next agenda...

Hold on to me and don't let me go God..

You know i stray easily and without you holding on to me i would have let you go.

emo kid. Cheer up and move on!

love u people...

* i have a confession....

i went for the dinner but didn't stand up. goodness gracious what's the problem with u pamie! :D

Paul’s Letter to the Corinthians

Paul’s Letter to the Corinthians in which he says, “If I speak in the tongues of mortals and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal,” and then he goes on to give his own definition of love. “Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful. It is not arrogant or rude.” And then he says, “Love does not insist on its own way.” That’s the piece of love I want to get at today. “Love seeketh not her own,” saith the poetry of King James’ day. “Love does not insist on its own way.” “Love seeketh not her own.”

http://www.firstparish.org/cms/sermons/958-who-do-we-want-to-become

Sharon Good - Good life coaching

surround yourself with positive and successful people and it will motivate you to be more like them.

people that are ahead are people who are wiling to keep learning. it's the old dogs who are unwilling to learn new tricks that are having a hard time moving into their next career.

assess your skill set and take some classes to fill in the gaps.

update your resume

targeting your transferable skills rather than your job history

nothing can take the place of persistence.

talents will not.nothing is more common than unsuccessful people with talents.

Genius is not: unrewarded genius is almost a proverb.

Education will not: the world is full of educated derelict. Persistence and determination is omnipotent.

• Each of us comes into this world with a unique set of gifts and talents. It is through these gifts and talents that we can not only bring the greatest joy into our lives, but also make our greatest contribution. My mission is to help people live joyful, authentic lives that reflect their passions and values.

• No dream is right or wrong, too big or too small. One of my passions is to encourage and support others to follow their desires and dreams despite the discouraging messages they've received. As children, we're applauded for our talents and steered away from the things in which we display less ability. I strongly believe that if we feel a burning desire to do something, there's a reason for it -- one that may not become clear to us until years down the road. We each have unique gifts that we bring to the world, and our desires lead us to express those gifts. In the process, we uncover hidden talents and develop new ones. I, personally, have found success in areas that I was attracted to, but in which I was considered to lack talent. If I can do it, so can you.

• We're living in a changing world where self-fulfillment and expressing our gifts and talents -- in other words, bringing meaning and purpose to our lives -- is becoming more important than acquiring wealth and status. We're in a transition period, and many of us are still finding our way out of the old paradigm into the new. Using the Life Purpose Process and my own life experiences, I get great joy and reward helping other people find their way through this transition into a new, more enjoyable life, to living their dreams.

• A lot of us get stuck in our past -- who we once were, what people told us about ourselves -- and we limit what we can do in the present and the future. By dropping the baggage of our past and changing the old, outdated beliefs, we free ourselves to soar into the future we dream of.

our new path calls on us to be willing to let go of the comfort of the old, familiar ways and open to learning new skills and new ways of being. -Sharon Good-

Ringing philosophies

" The revelations of the child are not at all so difficult to obtain, the real difficulty lies in the adult's old prejudices concerning him"

"A new education from birth onward must be built up. Education must be reconstructed and based on the laws of nature and not on the preconceived notions and prejudices of adult society."

Dr. Maria Montessori (The Formation of Man p.22 & p.97)

moral studies paid off..

In my How To teach race and culture notes. (

LOL)

(translation from bm to english) :P.

If you have money,

you will need to take care of the money,

if you have knowledge,

knowledge will take care of you.

If you have money,

you can keep the money,

the money will still be there,
but if you have knowledge,

keep it,

and it will disappear.

If you have money,

you can buy a house,

but with all the money alone,

you can't buy happiness in a home.

If you have the money,

you can buy medicines,

but with all the money you have,

you can't buy health.

If you have the money,

you can buy books,

you can buy many books,

but with all the money you have,

you can't buy knowledge.

Lastly,

if you have all the money,

you can buy plane tickets

to go any part of this world,

but with all the money you have,

you can't buy a ticket to heaven.

(Dr Yusof Othman,196,2005)


Psychology in Behavior Management

Non-assertive (Weak)

- I'm Not Okay.. I SUCK
- You're Okay... You're GREAT.
- I Failed
- You Succeed


Aggressive (Rude/ Violent)

- I'm OKAY I'm so Marvelous. I'm like the BESt of the Best
- You're Not OKAY You Suck to the MAXX :P
- I'm a WINNER, I WON I am the CHAMPION...
- You're Loser, YOU LOST BIG FAT LOSER!


Assertive (Wise)

- I'm OK
- You're OK TOO
- I SUCCEED
- YOU SUCCEED TOO (no fight .. no fight..)

Assertive psychology seeks to establish collaboration with fairness for achieving mutual interest. Creating a WIN-WIN situation and respecting the rights of others.

Don't ask what can the boss give you,

but ask what you can contribute to the boss.

Hope you had a good laugh...in reality huh? :P

Here is another comical story.

probably quite known already...

This is a story about four people:

Everybody, Somebody, Anybody and Nobody. There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it. Somebody got angry about that because it was Everybody’s job. Everybody thought Anybody could do it. It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when actually Nobody asked Anybody.

Mmmm.YUMMY

if only this comes out in my moral exams..bleuks..hehe